Feeling bad, awful, terrible. Short-term of insomnia but it is long for her because she never have before. She felt stress on __, because of __. Probably the one should get her hands off is __, or maybe, she just hasn't get used of it. Do you know the feeling? Its just like shit. Full of motivations on everything or everyone because of those god-damn paranoid, insecure, stingy, accompaniments. Why the hell on earth will reserve a place for this human? A bad human.
Can't feel herself on anything. Needs chatting, doing things, busying or even just the phone ringing. No way for the brain to be blank, then that would be the way. Craving or waiting that day/night to come, so that she could collapsed and let herself go, and there's brand new her. But when will the day comes? It is very easy to say or comfort but tough and hard to take actions. When people says they are okay, don't believe it, they would be lying. Girls are seriously not tough as they say. Just pretending nothing because they believe they would never living in darkness. They are not perfect. No one will be.
and now she doesn't know what she's bullshittiing.
__ J. Louie
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